Just applied!

Applications for the CRP starting between July and December 2011 opened today, and I just submitted my application. I had a moment of dffgugdfjgfjgb what am I doing why am I doing this slash ohmyGod I hope I get this, but it's okay, I've calmed down now.

I want this so much, but there's a few things in my life right now (a friend's wedding and my boyfriend, most importantly) that if I don't get in this time around, I will know is a sign that I'm meant to stay for these things. If I don't get in this time around, I will keep applying until I do.

And now the waiting begins ... eek.