Less than a week of waiting left (for now).

By this time next week, I'll have finally heard from Yummy Jobs. And as positive as I'm trying to be, and usually am, I'm not feeling great about this. In the time that we've all been waiting for the end of August, so many fellow waitlistees have been given positions, and there's very few of us left (or so it seems) in the Facebook group that are actually still waiting. Admittedly most of the dates that have been given are before mid April 2012 (which was when I said I was available from), but a couple have been after, and I can't help but wonder 'why not me? Was I not good enough?'
Obviously I'm thrilled for everyone who's been given dates - there's a couple leaving within the next couple of months, which is so exciting! There's just slowly becoming less and less of us in the situation that we all started out in.

At this point, I don't think we'll be declined. But I do think that there's a strong chance that we'll be waitlisted. I checked over the emails we were sent by Yummy when they gave out the first 'wave' (as they called it) of offers, and in one Nick states:

At this time Disney has made a number of offers for positions that they have available for 2011 and 2012.

Currently Disney does not have the full number of open positions for 2012 available. We anticipate receiving details of these additional positions by the end of August 2011 at the latest.

Those words 'at the latest' gave me hope at the time - hooray, we could hear sooner! And some many people have. But there's now only 3 working days left until the end of August and it seems less and less likely that we'll be assigned the additional positions by the end of August and more and more likely that we'll be waitlisted until yet another date far in the future.

I want this so much, but I feel as if my life has been on hold - in a way - since I first applied way back in January. Eight months is a long time for life to be on hold. I don't mind if I've given a date that means I won't be going for over a year (since it looks as if they're yet to assign anyone any dates in October, November or December 2012), I just would like to KNOW if I'm actually going. Not knowing is slowly driving me crazy.